Rift

I've been struggling mentally for the past months and this week has been the absolute finest, with a cherry on top as they say. If my strength wasn't built for these types of struggle and trials I might have been a disbeliever nor even be someone who act accordingly to emotions.

I believe my mood went up and down a lot for this year, my emotions were bruised, mentally exhausted and physically drained. At first I led my emotions gets the best of me, somethings just pushed me over the edge for me to lose control or losing my cool.

Even so, I snapped out of it easily because I don't see the good in it by letting my emotions get in the way. I was overwhelmed by a lot of things that it almost led me to feel demotivated and consumed with sadness and stress.

To make this a story, last week my latest family member my little baby Prada got sick. She was in extreme pain and it cause me a lot and at this time it's very overwhelming and I've never been so speechless publicly. I remembered how thankful I am with my God given conscience to not dwell.

Ignoring my troubles, I've been diligently religious with my routine on making sure my girl to get better. I can never let her suffer, I was praying so hard for her to be herself again. I never missed a minute to make sure she eats every 2 hours by hand feeding and give her meds on time. After a few days she started to climb onto bed with me, eats on its own and also being playful again, it takes time for her to heal properly but the slightest changes gave me so much hope and restore my faith that if you let go what's burdening your mind and there's not much you can do about it just do the best as you can daily then everything will fall into place as it should.

My piece of advise, have faith and never succumb to despair because it leads to nothing but fell more deeply into a dark mess. There is light of possibilities if you open your mind and your heart.

It's a small progress but she's getting there.